Weigh In Wednesday

Another good weigh in this morning taking my weight to a round 112 kilos. Slow and steady.

I know I can do better though - there are still so many areas I can improve on. If I look at the bright side of that statement it´s that I have something I can change every week.

• I still need to drink more water
• I am trying to body brush everyday - it really improves the look of the cellulite on my legs!
• No more biscuits!!! (this weekend was a shocker!)

I am going to keep going with the shakes today, yesterday went really well and I added in berries as well.

I was just thinking I should actually do my measurements - trouble is that I don´t have a tape measure - on the asap "to do" list. It would be nice to have that as a measure of my progress as well.

Meal Replacements

I started off the weight loss week last Wednesday eating lots of raw and vegan food and while I am enjoying that, I decided to switch for the next three or four days to high protein shakes. I am so so snowed under with mothering duties, housework and life that preparing food is just an extra stress.

Its not just the preparing either, but planning and shopping too. Baby is taking up every spare second I have and nothing is getting done. I am spending most of the day sitting on my backside feeding him at present- or with him sleeping on me, where he is happiest.

So I bought a vanilla high protein shake mix yesterday and am having it with skim milk (1.5%) and ice cubes which mix up really well in my super duper blender.

I am planning to have 4 a day or 5 if I need it until I get sick of it and then go back to "real" food.

I am going to enjoy the break from cooking for myself and not thinking about food.

I don´t know if anyone else can relate to this....?

Weigh In Wednesday

112.9 this morning! I am over the moon- and I know its partly because I had a really good eating day yesterday (I ate nothing but sushi and fruit).

The sushi and fruit diet has worked for me really well before. I lost my second lot of baby weight while living in Brisbane - near Chermside shopping centre. Often my exercise in the humid weather would be to drive up there with my baby- walk around a lot and do shopping- eat sushi rolls for lunch and take some home for dinner.

Even though white rice seems to be considered a bad food, it really worked for me. Luckily there were sushi rolls places all over the place in Brisbane. I´m not so lucky in Germany now- it is not readily available and a lot more expensive- if I want it I have to plan and budget for it.

However, I will try and do just that, if it helps get me back into my weight loss groove that I found so well before.

I Couldn´t Feel Worse!

I just had my daughter take these photos of me- so they´re not the best before photos in the world, but will do - after all they are the photos that I am never ever going to want anyone to see. Seriously, ok, I am putting them on the internet here, but they won´t be going in family albums.


My son is 4 weeks old today and my present is seeing these absolutely vile photos of myself. I really didn´t think I looked so fat. Somehow the person I see in the mirror when I am getting ready to leave the house is a lot thinner. Even my face is fat.

I am really disgusted in myself. Meh.

Inspiration Photo

This was me exactly three years ago. I´m not even sure why I took this photo, however I am glad I did as now it´s my inspiration!

Three years ago I had lost the baby weight (I was 130 kilos just before my second caesarean) from my second child who was just about to turn 2, we had just moved to Germany, and I was spending the days at the pool with my kids getting a bit of colour.

Was I happy with myself? I was about 78 kilos and I wanted to get to 70, so I guess I wasn´t.

I look at that photo now and while I would love to be there again- WANT to be there again, I also see less than slim thighs that barely squeezed into the size 12 (Australian) Country Road pants I had just bought. I also know that I cropped the photo because I hate my knees and they were still "fat".

The next step is to take a "before" photo and post it too. I will try and get to that this weekend.

Is anyone else brave enough to join me? :)

1 kilo down

I forgot to post yesterday on my weigh in day but am very happy to be one kilo down. Even after some stress over eating and even with the fact that I can´t do much physically...though I can feel that changing as I get stronger.

Reasons I overate:

1. I had an eye infection followed by baby getting one too. The meant I overate to compensate for feeling miserable and also because of a constantly crying baby for 24 hours until I came to my senses and took him to the doctor (he´s better now).

2. Not being prepared...I have three children to look after and suddenly my time has diminished more than I ever would have believed (crazy, huh?). So I don´t have time to sit down and eat a proper meal and I haven´t prepared healthy snacks for myself meaning that I am just eating any old thing. This week´s motto is "be prepared".

I have been drinking lots of water on the positive side which was an important aim of mine as well.

I feel positive overall. I am not going to give up!

More Effort Needed

So, far I am not doing very well...thank God Monday is a new week. I have somehow just not got into the eating less zone and as I am not exercising yet, I just don´t see the weight moving unless I eat significantly less.

A real challenge as I deal with the stress of adjusting to life with the new baby, who while gorgeous and lovable is also very labour intensive.

Two days till my first weigh-in. I need a result of at least one kilo!

My plan today is to eat "raw"- raw vegetables and fruit. Museli with almond milk and maybe a piece of fish later on. No empty carbs, no sweets.

A Good Idea to Weigh Everyday?

I was happy to see I had lost half a kilo this morning on the scales, however have decided to just update once a week - every Wednesday.

I tend to like to jump on the scales every morning- THOUGH- I know there are opposing ideas as to whether this is a good idea or not. For me, I have found in the past that it works- I need to keep a daily check on my weight or it quickly goes out of control - when I am in "piling the pounds back on" mode, I tend not to weigh myself at all -figures!

Sometimes though, if I get a bad morning weigh in, it can depress me and demotivate me - so I have to somehow balance this with being positive about the future no matter what the change might be from day to day.

I hope to lose quite a few kilos this week....however considering I still have a healing and slightly painful incision, it needs to be through decreasing food intake alone and drinking loads of water - we shall see.

My intention is to blog my weight everyday which may get a bit boring, however I really need to do this. This blog is for me and my health, unfortunately not so much my entertainment :(

Mini goal- to get to 110 kilos

Today´s the day!

Me with jaundiced baby one week ago :)

Two weeks and one day ago, I gave birth (by c-section) to a lovely 4.25 kilo baby boy who I absolutely adore - that´s the good news!

The bad news is I have spent since then eating armloads of bread and butter (esp in the hospital for 6 days- mostly out of boredom), pizza, chinese takeway, chocolate and icecream.

Today it stops!

I adjusted my ticker for today´s starting weight- 115 kilos (the day I went to the hospital I was 122.... I managed to eat my way out of a better initial weight loss). Today is the day I start my own "biggest loser" journey and regain my old self.

Its spring here in Germany and I am in dire need of being able to wear warm weather clothes asap. I have some size 16s in my wardrobe I need to be able to get into.... I don´t want to buy size 20s :(, I actually ordered a size 20 summer dress on the internet and sent it back straight away- it was hideous- or rather I was- I will stick to jeans and pregnancy/breastfeeding tops until I can manage my 16s.