I haven´t blogged since before my birthday last year- when I turned 40! and was 87 kilos on the day and feeling happy about it :)

So, we skip to May 2011 and there was virtually no progress until the beginning of March. From November to March, my weight stayed between 90 and 88 kilos and because I was going out a lot eating and drinking, I think I was lucky not to gain more.

Two months ago, I started again in earnest and have dropped down to 82.0 kilos today!

I have been very motivated because I am attending a friend´s wedding 3 weeks from now and wearing a beautiful new dress and feeling confident have been forefront in my mind. And then there is another wedding in July, so I think I can keep the momentum going.

I would love to be under 80 for the wedding- so a kilo a week is still on my mind- no going out, no alcohol and temporarily no dairy products either.

Back from holidays, 1 week in, 87.8 k

I returned from 6 weeks holiday in Australia last week- welcome back me!

I thought I was going to go away and lose 5 kilos (hahahaha), really I did. In fact I managed to maintain over that time- all the family events, plane food, stress (yes, even on a family holiday), temptations, wine and christening cake...

So I came back to Germany exactly the same weight I left as and promptly getting back to my old eating patterns proceeded to lose 2 kilos. Which makes me think I was carrying a bit of bloat there, a bit of water.

And although I miss my family, I am for the sake of my weight loss, happier to be surrounded by less tempting food and my own routine. I binged a few times while away (on biscuits/cookies/cake/potato chips) and it only brought up feelings of self hatred and disillusionment. I was able to recover from these feelings and stay ENOUGH on the straight on narrow (ie a lot of leeway) that I didn´t come back 5 to 10 kilos heavier as I have done in the past.

I turn 40 in 6 weeks- no I won´t be at goal weight- but I´ll be close enough and at goal for Christmas and fitting back into some lovely winter coats I have.

90.1- still the elusive 89 waits...

I have been in Australia since Tuesday morning and even with all the jetlag and irregular eating I have been doing- irregular that is as in timing, not quality, I am back on track. My mother is doing a similar diet to me (and looking great!) so she has been very supportive in preparing me food.

So it was not too hard to undo the damage of the last week of stress- I am relaxed now, sticking to my eating plan and not craving things I shouldn´t.

All is well. And the sun is shining here even though its winter :)

Kind of lost the plot this week- I´m over 91 again

...struggling with moving stress and trying to make sense of life! We are one day into the two day move and then I have four full days before I fly to Australia. Four days to organise lots of paperwork, clothes, packing stuff, say goodbye to friends, buy presents for teachers, clean the apartment, tie up loose ends etc etc!

I did regain control today, which makes me proud- at least I know that I can get back on the wagon when I fall off.

Stay tuned for me getting below 9-0 kilos soon! X